~HUjUng MiNngu~

walau pun wknd yg baru berlalu ak hbiskan bersama my precious darling Niece, Miss Damia AriSsa yg sgt petah n bijak tu, jauh disudut hati mmg ada terasa kosong. Chup, tolonglah jgn kata sebb ak single, x dak pakwe sbb tu rasa cmtu..nak aje ak lempang..

apa dgn cinta manusia jer ker sudut hati tu akan penuh terisi??ha, jawab2, jawab. terkedu lah tu..sedar diri lah tu.hahah..

Mungkin sebab dlam diam ak terkenangkan shbt terasa yg smkin mnjauh, walau sbnrnya dekat ajer jarak yg memishkn. Mungkin sebab ak terpikir-pikir yang betapa canggihnya teknologi skrng tetp x berguna kalau orng yng memilikinya x pun mahu menggunnakannya. Mungkin sebb bulan ak dah nak mengambang, jadi emosi x baper nak stabil n tahap kesensitifan jiwa meningkat dgn kadar x dpt dibendung.Hmm, maka aku buat kesimpulan sbb buln ak dh nk mngmbang, makanya emosi ak x stabil. Perasaan pn jadi kucar kacir, hati pun asyik tak tenteram.


hai lah~!cepatlah poie jejauh!! BENCI!

Tgk, kn emo Lagik tu..huhu btw raya tahun nih mmg terasa sgt hambar. bagi aku lah. Maybe sbb ak jadik kekok n hilng mood beraya sbb thn nih, malam raya br balik kg. Mebe sbb blik kg pn x ramai orng yg ada d kg. Thun nih pn x pi beraya sgt. Jmputn utk open house pn mmg byk yg ak skip. Well not sngaja sgtlah skip tu..mostly sebb timIng x baper kena. hmm maaf sesgt yer kengkawan x dpt hadir.N of course terima kasih byk2 sebab jmput..(^o^)/


Oh yer, tentang si dia yg sedng mngetuk pintu hati, kamu mmg sgt mencabr n menguji ksbaran..Mungkin kamu sbnrnya x rasa apa yg aku rasa. dan pedih sekali bile diri x ada kekuatan utk bgthu kamu yg sakitnya jiwa nih ~adoi,naperlah nk singgh2 ketuk2 kalu x reti nk masuk?cet!~

~Dear Me~

Dearest Shahirah,

You know if you are not careful enough you"ll Be falling into the same old trap again.Though with a different person now, you know it would still hurt like hell~!

Gosh, how I wish i can really train every inch of your brain to just ignore and simply play along without involving any or even the very smallest part of me in his game. BUt then i do realize if we ever have to find someone to blame this thing to it's definitely going to be me, who have to take the responsibility right? In fact, I'm the one suggesting this plan right? I'm the one looking for trouble, right? and what i do? I dragged along every single of ur anatomy to do what ever i please.

So much of becoming an angel, konon~!Try to inject and spread the love.Encouraging and guiding sangat~!Shahirah,what are you thinking?Now slowly I mean very Slowly u're falling into the trap.AGAIN! See how stupid u are right?

We both always know at athe back of the mind and deep down within me whatever things he said, most of the time he don't really mean it right? He just by nature a sweet talker and for god sake with a very handsome physical that really attract U,right? DAMN~!

From now on things would be so much harder because u fall for him already~!But I do know if it involved me, u would be as much as helpless if he come around again right? Just be strong, Shahirah. Don't be very negative. I'm not trying to build up hope here but we just could not deny that if he is the one for you, he'll come around sooner or later..doakan sahaja..

"Ya Allah, jika dia benar untukku. Dekatkanlah hatiku dgn hatinya.Jika dia bukan untukku, redhakanlah aku dengan ketentuanMu."