FuturisTic~

So many thing happened last week..Well,to summarize it let say, I've gone to two different interviews, tutoring my cousin, get my thesis hardbound,went back to melaka to submit my thesis, spent a night in melaka, went to see En Raja and back in KL again on Saturday. Plus, I went to Kelab Tasik Putrajaya last nite accompany Hanisah for a wedding recption~hmm quite a week aite?

and somehow it feels like today had been so far forward from the date of my interviews.waiting for the answer and like hell,i hate waiting~knowing that u r in a vulnerable situation..my,i hate this situation.Ready to crumble~well not really crumble but somehow i did feel frustrated.It's kinda funny though.When u still struggling with ur study and books, u fight and compete to get the higher and the better marks compare to ur friends. U want to be known as the best. And sure did all those competions wear me out.and when i somehow figure that i can walk free from that kind of stress now that i've done my learning session,i'm totally wrong.

Somehow i still feel the urge to compete with them in term of securing a good job, a decent well known position.And guess what, bila sampai time macm nih, baru terasa betapa kesal dulu x struggle giler-giler punyer and score a so much better marks~but then, they said that ur pointer is not everything.Yeah now u tell me that my pointer does not mean so much,it's ur atitude,it's how u prenst urself that's count.oooh Please lah~~since i was in a kindergarten, soalan yg pling selalu orng tanya, 'dapt no berapa dlm kelas?' 'Kelas ke berapa masuk?'

now when u done with ur degree, with not so very great result they said start saying,'relax thing will go well' like duhhh~year of years been provided with the idea that only with great result will u have brighter future,now they say, the word 'relax'~who they try to fool?Hmm seems like i had been even more emotional over this matter right?

i don't know~maybe sumhow, at this point of life, i'm feeling more pressure than i thought i would face. Since i was a little girl i want to have a decent job, have people look at me and respect me. Now when i'm done with my first degree, still somewhere i feel like there's still an empty hole inside of me waiting to be filled.

my mum thought that i'll be wasting my degree if i don't or did not apply job in engineering as i'm a graduate studnt of engineering.but then i don't know why,lately i feel like getting a job in engineering is more like a bonus to me rather than a must-have job. I've completed my degree, though not so very great but i did past far better than my expectection~ I did managed to reach my goal which i had set when i decided to go for the engineering study.

so now, i'm trying so much more to venture my potential as i believe i can do more.I have more of myself that waiting for me to be discover. maybe the realization come a bit late but yet i'm sure that i still can manage it as i'm still young and energetic. At this time,I think that it is not so very bad for me to actually go and work at any department of a company~I'm willing to learn and venture the new experiences.And as expected,not so many people understand that~

sigh~walau macm mana pun,rezekei kn tuhan yang tentukan.Apa yg ak u boleh lakukan hnyalh usaha. memng ak mahu bekerja dlm bidang kejuruteraan,tapi ak tak menolak rezeki sekiranya ak ada peluang untuk mendalami bidang lain~





having my first degree done

Ketika CintA~

Finally, dh setel pun with my PSM2 presentation,on the morning of last 5th may. Well I must say it doesn't went so well as i hope it would.but then,like what Dr Khaled had said before,'expect the unexpected'.Hopefully at least dpat score half of the marks dari yg examiner's mark..but then,what's done is done right,so wut i can only do is pray n pray~(^^,)/

i'm heading back to KL today~i'M done packing~welll sort of..huhuh nasib before nih pun dh angkut2 skit blik..tp nih pun x surelah muat ke x dlm keta tu..kancil je rpun..huhu but then blik kl nih pun,later i'll be back in melaka again for shortwhile jerlah sebb nk submit report and so on..

sekrng nih sibuk dok update resume..somehow,i still wonder.I don't know wether i want to apply jobs in engineering field or go outside the league?it's not that i don't like wut i learned through these 4 years,but somehow my result is not an excellent one,but then i'm not so bad either..tapi dunia nih, bukan x ada ke tempat untuk 'average'? yg akan orng pilih adalah kepakaran atau kebodohan..huh cmna ek~i'm confused..antara minat,bakat,suka,ilmu ..mana dulu yg patut ditimbang tilik?

Song of the day

Melly Goeslow feat Amee-Ketika Cinta Bertasbih



Quote of the Day:

Penantian~

Hey~

it's kinda official now~the day i waited for the last 4 years~well not really waited but sort of expected since i stepped in UTeM which formerly known as Kolej Universiti Teknikal Malaysia Melaka that time~ see,lately it had been so easy to be so nostalgic and emotional about this kind of things~huhuh

I've finish my last paper last wednesday..Yup the finale paper of all my final semester examination..nggeee rasa cm x caya..siap en shahir mention lagik..'tulislh ayat terakhir awk utk exam nih.dari tadika dulu awk tunggu' lebih kurng cmtulah ayt dier..terasa syahdu sih~mak aih,ank mak dh semakin dewasa..

hahahh btw ak pun dh secara rasminyer dh pegang umur 23 thun..adoyai byklah pulak angka tu..tapi nasiblah exam time tgh xm,pasrah jerla..hmm agk nyer as u getting older bday wish pun shrinking kot~sedey gak tapi life must go on..yg penting family tersayang still ingt n tetap wish kat..ngeee

sekrng nih semntara tunggu hari nk wat prsntation, lepak umh sewa nih..x dak keja lain..kalu x tdo pi mkn..boring amik kunci stat enjin keta,ronda melaka..main game kat laptop,layan berkodi2 cerita, layan tenet,utube~mak aih itu jerlah yg dibuat hari hari..tmbh skit tgk tv..hahah my gosh,nih baru gap seminggu..kalu dh hbis presnt nnti cmnerlah gamaknnyer?hmmmm x tau nk kata per..huhu

nerves menunggu hari nk presnt..rasa cm x yakin sgt..tapi tau yg i'll make sense out of all my research result..i'll find my words and my way of talking to make sense to everyone's mind..my to be true,i'm scared..so damn scared that i'll mess everything like i did in PSM1..but then, i'm no fool..

people who repeat the same mistake is a fool..i've learned from my previous mistakes and not ever want to repeat it~well btw my psm1 not a total damage somehow i must state that i'm not proud of it~i'm trying to do my best here..get prepared n read and understand,well equipped with the info regarding the topic and so on..but of course, x ley lupa satu2 nyer cara tmbhn yg pasti berkesan..

minta tolong n petunjuk dari ilahi..i'm just a human being..walau sehebat mana pun rancangan dan plan yg ak buat,segalanay allah yg tentukan..ak cuma perlukan yg terbaik dan semampunya aku~ya allah berilah kekuatan dan kejayaan untuk perjuangan ini ~~aminn..

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Music of The daY:

Lady Gaga feat Akon-Just Dance (Scene from 'Make it Happen')