kerjaLah~

hmm, biler dah cuti 3 hari,memnag kemalasan mula berakar umbi dalam hati,dalam diri utk menggerakkan tubuh + minda untuk cergas berfungsi.Bulan ramadhan yang mulia nih pulka jadik alasan penyedap rasa lagi produktiviti menurun~Haila Shahirah..ape nak jadik?

huhu ari nih independence day~well for that, "happY 52nd birthday malaysia!"well ikut kata berita n tv ari nih, disambut sederhana~ni duch thing as firework n countdown..hahah sudah berapa lama daa ak x wat menda2 cmtu~dulu selalu gak tunggu depan tv. kira sesama konon..huhuh mungkin kesedaran yg kemerdekaan bagi ak bukan terletak pada sambutan yang dibuat tapi tindakan yang lebih membawa kepada keuntungan dan kemakmuran pada negara terlebih penting.hahhah there goes 'me' yang patriotik. tapi sungguh ak sayang malaysia.walau pun ak cukup pening tgk n baca berita pasal polituk negara,tapi ak mmng bersyukur dilahirkan dan dibesarkan bawah langit bumi malaysia..ehheeh enough of all this patriotic things~ehehh

hmm esok ak kena trun dataran merdeka.well company ak dah dapat pun l.a utk projek refurbishment kat plaza putra tu,so all the m& e punya physical work semuanya dah pun secara rasminya bermula. and bila cakap pasal kerja,esok mmg buat jnatung aj bedebar tahap dewa.jiwa kacau,hati runsing..hahah

esok ada technical meeting lagik.bukan x pernah attend meeting technical before nih, cuma esok diorng nak go through every detail and synchronized kan working schedule sumer part lah..segal bagai sumer benda esok..adoyai..yang pening ak lah~bukan x siap kerja tapi kerja x lengkap.ak memang mengaku awal2 yang ak memang zero,nada,yelek experience tau dalam bidang construction nih.Memang ak ada degree engineering, tapi ak punyer field manufacturing-->industri punyer specialization. industri @ kilang. tapi la nih kerja masuk construction.

nasib gak ler company ak nih construction pun electrical.bukan civil.kalu tak mau lagik berkerut dahi ak..adus, memang ak naik gelabah gak..kalu ak ada senior yg bley tlong ak,memang ak x kisah sgt.maklumlah ak baru 2 bulan meh masuk kerja.takkan diorng expect ak terror segala benda sedang masa diorng amik aku diorng tau ak fresh grad.mak aih,so ape nak jadik,jadiklah.esok ak pi tayang muka toya jer lah~angguk2 geleng2..reputasi beb..sape mau tolong jaga?

bila jadi hal macam nih,memang rasa hati nak quit jer kerja.tapi wjere's the fire babe?wut happpen to winner takes all?and winner never quit and quitter neve win?hmm amatlah sayang utk ak berhenti separuh jalan.ak dah masuk 1 1/4 kaki ak dalam bidang nih,so apa salhnye rka teruskan saja.Things will be a hell lot tougher and i did expect the world of engineering would be like this, so definitely no point in complaining and whining~ak cuma kena bertahan!yep,sure that what i'll do..

ak akan jadikan prjek dataran nih sebagai kayu ukur ketahanan ak.lagipun kalu ak dpat join projek nih sampai ke akhirnya,surely ak punyer profile pun akan upgrade.yeah sure!sabar shahirah.try more!work harder!ehehh begitu semangat ak..ey,ak ada kerja lagiklah nk kena prepare utk meeting esok..don't quit!u survive wearing 4 inch platform througout shopping in jusco and warehouse,apa kes meeting esok jadik senak perut lak?huhuh so all da best gurl!

p/s well that's me motivating myself!huhuh

biTTer week~

hmmm,lately works had been somehow quite hard for me..haha never thought that I'll ever said that..not saying that I'm damn good at everything that i actually will excel in everything i do.mind you~

it just that i always consider myself as an intern in the company where I'm working now.And somehow i always believe that I'm still in a learning process and that any mistakes i did, it still can be forgiven.and because of that, i had somehow (again~!) take matter a bit lightly.u know that they said in business world, everything which is anything can happen kn~and everything which is anything can mean money~!


hmm wut can i say,fresh grad mentality gamaknyer..ak mmg still hijau sgt dlm dunia engineering nih~ but dun worry i'm catching up pretty fast (well i force myself lah~mau nyer dgn rajinnyer ak wat)and deep down i know i started to fall even more deeply in love with this field...ey biler mau amik master daa..hahah oops,btw ak nk mndftar grad eng ngn BEM.asyik luper jer..

hmm being single and unattached somehow add up some points for my career path~tumpu kerja dl skrng nih~joli sukati,kuar suka jiwa..when jodoh + cinta come along,later baru pikir..hakahakhk

btw,brckp pasal career,to be true,ak x prnh sngka ak akn buat kerja2 eng masa masuk company nih as i apply for sales n marketing..tp itulh,org kata mungkin petunjuk allah nk bagi kot~eheh yg lawaknyer,between me n my job nih,it some kind of love-hate relationship..hahha ak suka buat kerja ak skrng nih tapi at the same time ada masanyer where i wish i can actually drop everything and just fly away~hahah

haa,ak kerja per sbnrnyer nih?huhuh br verify ngn boss,dia kata position ak nih namanyer project engineer..mak aih sikit lah punyer gah nama jawatan..and dear friend the job description, dsbbkn company yg ak kerja nih berstatuskn SME maka kerja dari menaip smpai shake hand with the client kena lah diri sndirik turun padang..ahhah kalu ada bunyik macam ak bermegah2 pasal jawatan tu,sesungguhnyer ketahuilah kawan2 that this is one of my proudest moment and please give me some time to actually enjoy it..hahahha

last couple of weeks had been quite a ride from hell gak ler..boss kejar2 tnya quotation nk submit..repair sana sini quo selepas berkali2nya ditolak..adoyai,penin..masa time attend meeting mmg terasa begitu kecil sekali diri ini..huhu tertnya2 apekejadah yg ak wat utk dpt attend meeting ngn 'org2 beso' nih..huhu 'orng2 beso' mksud ak, well established + well known arkitek, contractor, bisnes people..huhuhu diam jer ak..observe lah katakan..siapalah diri ini~ahhah

tp memanglah..funny enough bila berhadapan dgn kawan-kawan yg lain, ak still rasa rendah diri.i actually don't really know how to take compliments or perhaps just be proud of myself and where i'm now~maybe ak punyer self esteem nih problem kot..wut's wrong with me ha?


p/s selamat berkonvo utk rakan2 ku yg berkonvo dihujung Minggu begini~ahhah

video of the day~