Status~

bengang~biler rasa cintan dh mkin menguasai diri.perasaan dh mula kaya dengan rasa suka pada sidia,nyata apa jua tindakan yang dia buat sntiasa mnjadik perhatian dan masuk dalam penilaian kita.Kalau dulu,perkara A yang dia buat,terasa biasa,tapi bila hati mula berkenan,sapaan ringan sperti 'hi' pn sudah memadai utk buat satu hari terasa diawang-awngn.senyum sengih sepnjang hari terkenang2 dia.

Ak pn begitu.Ak x nafikan.Walau ak selalu mahu jadi discreet about my love affair tapi ak sedar yg ak selalu shj teringtkn si dia.Inagatn pada dia tetap ada walau sesibuk dan segila manapun hari ak berlalu.ada saja tentang dia yg meniti bibrku.aah,mesti kawan-kwan ku sudah mulai muak dengari kisah kami.

Hari ini satu lagik kisah chentaku~kalu dahulu ak akui,situasi ini tak pernh ak anggap pnting,tapi bila terkena btng hidung sndr,ak jadik sentap~it sounds kinda stupid.No matter how much i want to deny that i don't think that it's not really a big matter for me as my rational mind definitely understand his action towards this matter.But then, when i sit back,i do realize that somehow,i do take this matter quite personal.

well,the thing is,he choose not to change his status in facebook from 'single' to 'in a relationship'.Well before this i don't really care as i do agree that we'll keep our relationship low profile.but then yesterday i notice that he did change his status to 'it's complicated' and comments from his friends came in then the next thing i realized he simply change it back to 'single'.

entah kenapa terus ak rasa sgt 'sentap'.well,he did mention beforehand yang dia x nak tukar status dia sbb dia x mau kawan-kawan dia tiau@make fun of him.walau ak tak rasa logik sangat alasan dia tu,tapi ak tak rasa status fb tu sbg sesuatu yang besar @ would affect our relationship.Tapi semakin lama,ak x nafikan yang ak jadi terfikir macam2 bila status dia tak berubah.

Kadang-kadang ak terasa ak bercinta dgn orng yg punya split personality.dia begitu berbeza sewaktu msg @ sms dgn wktu kitorng berjumpa. aku tak tahu apa yg patut ak lakukan. Yan kata, 'why not he change the status?it's not like a very big deal kn?'

i almost speechless.I don't know.Apa yg ak fikir dari ketidakmahuan dia tukar status dia brdasarkn alasan dia bg:

1)Dia tak yakin dengan perasaan dia sndiri lagi.
2)Dia nak jaga status ngn kengkawan.
3)Dia tak baper sure ak suka dia.
4)Dia tak baper sure kitorang ada future together.
5)Dia memang tak mahu kawan-kawan tahu yg dia dh ada gf.
6)Dia tak yakin dengan perasaan ak
7)Dia tak rasa status tu mencerminkan apa-apa simbol pun.
8)Dia ada tunggu someone else jugak and tak nak orng tu pikir bukan-bukan.

bila dfikir,kelakar bila bnda mcm nih buat ak jadik emosi n sensitif~i hate this feelinng.I hate being emotional-freak woman!(>o<)/